My Self, the Fetus
Live-performance + residue installation
Duration: 5 hours
The recognition of who we are is defined by our self-conscience as it is defined by ‘the Other.’ The start of our identification process means decreasing the sense of self. As poet Arthur Rimbaud sharply states: “Je est un autre” – the I is someone else / I am someone else – the I is created through other people’s view/eyes. Throughout our lives, after we’ve lost this self, we will be constantly performing [other people’s vision on/of us]. One of my insights occurred: in the current society a human being can only have a sense of self when the identification process has not yet started, and therefore when there is no self-consciousness yet.
This research was translated into a live performance in which I lie down in fetal position with my body covered in a material that evolves from liquid to fixed to cracked within the timeframe of five hours. This represents the decreasing of the self while other people’s view on me increases.
Writer and poet Justin Samgar wrote a poem especially for this work.
‘My Self, the fetus’ at ArtDeli, Amsterdam.
© Photography and polaroids by Marieke Gras
© Lisette Ros